This time is so hard for me~

My heart is so sad. I have a friend that is in great need of wholenss, healing and love. I am so sad for them. I wish and pray for them to seek out the help that is needed to be whole and new the way you want them in you Jesus. Lord I know you can heal this heart. I pray that you cover this heart with more love and care then they know what to do with. I pray that you get through to them, in ways that only you can. I know you can heal. God only you can! Please touch this heart in a VERY DEEP way! I love you Lord, Please show this friend of mine how much I love them and more so how much you love them!!

My Friend

I love my friend and want her to know that I am here for her. Lord Please help her to know that I care. She is mad at me rignt now, I just miss her and want her to know how much I care about her! God please help her to know that!

About today....

Ok well today..... she has not been sick. She has been almost back to her old self. I am so greatful. When we went to the Dr today, I almost got the feeling from him that we were just making things up about how bad she was. But thats what she does. One day she will be sick, and then another day she is threwing up again. He said he thought she might be dealing with some GR, like she had when she was little. He gave her some meds, and said we will take it a few days at a time and see how she does, he said he wanted to know if she started t/u again. Lord, please help her to just be well now.

Our sweet little one.....

Well ok Shayla has been sick for about 26 days now. She started on 11-21 that was a Friday, she threw up. Then she did it again on Saturday. We went through the holidays and she was just a mess, fussy and not her self, crying all the time and just wanting to be held all the time. So I called the Dr on Monday after Thanksgivng and we went in, she said she thought she just had a flu bug or something. Well then we left her office that day and went to Best But, and she t/u all over me in the middle of the store. So I called the Dr and she said she wanted us to do blood work to see if there was anything that might show up. We tried and could not get anything, so we went back on Wednesday. We did blood and it came back a-ok! So we thought she might just be getting over what ever it was. So she seemed better, then she t/u again! A few days later. So then it was about a week and nothing, and she really started acting her self again. SO then last night she started t/u again!!! She t/u 9 times from 9 pm till 12am midnight. Dr did blood work and it all came back ok, but her white blood cell count was 21 and should be between 8-11, so it was high, she said she wanted to start her on some anti, so we did. She gave her an iv, with some fluids. We did not get home until 4:30-5:00 AM so we all slept in late today. I got up and gave her, er meds and she t/u again!!!! OMGOSH!! Lord we all need strengh and grace! I just want to find out whats going on...... ok well.... she just t/u again!!! We are all so worn out. Daddy has not gotten any rest and I have not gotten much either, not to mention what Shayla must be feeling like. I just HATE seeing her feel bad, and not her self. Lord please heal her and show us how to help her best! We are all heading to be now.... she is resting well. Maybe she will feel better in the am. We are heading to the specialist tomorrow. Maybe he might have some answers.
Thanks for reading....

Day #1

Ok well... here is my very first Blog. I have always wanted to start one, and well here goes. I hope you all enjoy it. Just dont think my life is all that much to write about, but if you want to read you can. I just think it might be a good place for me to just share my heart. Not a lot going on today. Shayla and I are just resting here at home. I have had a tough week. Not feeling all that well, and had a little beark down last night about it. I guess its hard to try to hide it when I feel bad and people are asking me if I have had a good week, and how we are all doing. I want to tell them all how I really feel and then I feel like people would feel sorry for me and I dont want that. So I just go on acting like I am ok when I feel like I am about to pass out!!!! Last night was really hard for me, at the Youth Christmas party. I was on edge the whole time. I felt like I was going to hit the floor at any time the while time I was there and I just kept going. And was like.... well if I pass out then thats ok. If not then no one will ever know. I just might come accross like I just dont feel well. God Please help me with this. I need your healing. I know I have been healed so much already, But its still hard. God I thank you for all that you have done for me. I love you!