Day #1

Ok well... here is my very first Blog. I have always wanted to start one, and well here goes. I hope you all enjoy it. Just dont think my life is all that much to write about, but if you want to read you can. I just think it might be a good place for me to just share my heart. Not a lot going on today. Shayla and I are just resting here at home. I have had a tough week. Not feeling all that well, and had a little beark down last night about it. I guess its hard to try to hide it when I feel bad and people are asking me if I have had a good week, and how we are all doing. I want to tell them all how I really feel and then I feel like people would feel sorry for me and I dont want that. So I just go on acting like I am ok when I feel like I am about to pass out!!!! Last night was really hard for me, at the Youth Christmas party. I was on edge the whole time. I felt like I was going to hit the floor at any time the while time I was there and I just kept going. And was like.... well if I pass out then thats ok. If not then no one will ever know. I just might come accross like I just dont feel well. God Please help me with this. I need your healing. I know I have been healed so much already, But its still hard. God I thank you for all that you have done for me. I love you!